From a letter written in prison to his daughter, Margaret, by Saint Thomas More
With good hope I shall commit myself wholly to God |
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Saint Thomas More |
Although
I know well, Margaret, that because of my past wickedness I deserve to
be abandoned by God, I cannot but trust in his merciful goodness. His
grace has strengthened me until now and made me content to lose goods,
land, and life as well, rather than to swear against my conscience.
God’s grace has given the king a gracious frame of mind toward me, so
that as yet he has taken from me nothing but my liberty. In doing this
His Majesty has done me such great good with respect to spiritual profit
that I trust that among all the great benefits he has heaped so
abundantly upon me I count my imprisonment the very greatest. I cannot,
therefore, mistrust the grace of God. Either he shall keep the king in
that gracious frame of mind to continue to do me no harm, or else, if it
be his pleasure that for my other sins I suffer in this case as I shall
not deserve, then his grace shall give me the strength to bear it
patiently, and perhaps even gladly.
By the merits of his bitter passion joined to mine and
far surpassing in merit for me all that I can suffer myself, his
bounteous goodness shall release me from the pains of purgatory and
shall increase my reward in heaven besides.
I will not mistrust him, Meg, though I shall feel
myself weakening and on the verge of being overcome with fear. I shall
remember how Saint Peter at a blast of wind began to sink because of his
lack of faith, and I shall do as he did: call upon Christ and pray to
him for help. And then I trust he shall place his holy hand on me and in
the stormy seas hold me up from drowning.
And if he permits me to play Saint Peter further and
to fall to the ground and to swear and forswear, may God our Lord in his
tender mercy keep me from this, and let me lose if it so happen, and
never win thereby! Still, if this should happen, afterward I trust that
in his goodness he will look on me with pity as he did upon Saint Peter,
and make me stand up again and confess the truth of my conscience
afresh and endure here the shame and harm of my own fault.
And finally, Margaret, I know this well: that without
my fault he will not let me be lost. I shall, therefore, with good hope
commit myself wholly to him. And if he permits me to perish for my
faults, then I shall serve as praise for his justice. But in good faith,
Meg, I trust that his tender pity shall keep my poor soul safe and make
me commend his mercy.
And, therefore, my own good daughter, do not let your
mind be troubled over anything that shall happen to me in this world.
Nothing can come but what God wills. And I am very sure that whatever
that be, however bad it may seem, it shall indeed be the best.
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